Little S was 5 last week, I can’t quite believe it. I remember clearly the night she was born. I remember what I was wearing. I remember being in so much pain I tried to throw myself off the bed, and it being all R and the midwife could do to keep me in one place. I remember begging for an epidural and not getting one. I can still feel the pain from the pethadine shot, waiting for it to work and then nothing happening. All it did was make my legs sore. I remember this little wild thing forcing it’s way out of me and feeling completely out of control.
It’s quite funny looking back, the way S was born is very much her personality now. She knows what she wants and doesn’t let much stand in her way. She might be tiny, but has always been very strong willed.
I remember the curry Rob ate when we got home sat on the sofa together in her room, the smell nearly making me throw up. My beautiful baby girl lying beside us.
S was a tiny little baby, with perfect features and clear porcelain skin. I couldn’t get over how girly her hands looked, slim fingers and pretty nails so different to Z’s chubby little boy hands.
As a toddler, she literally brightened up any room she entered. Her beautiful red hair and loving confident manner made everyone warm to her instantly.
At nursery she stood out as a bouncy, happy, friendly little girl. She became a bit of a tom boy, dresses were a complete no-no, and she would often sneak Z’s pants on instead of her own.
She has started school confidently, but seeming happier with the girls, which has been a surprise. In nursery she would’ve been building LEGO or racing around, but now seems happier drawing or making things. I wonder if the uniform has made her feel more aligned to the girls or perhaps she is just finding her feet. Whichever it is, I am so proud of my funny, creative and loving little girl who has brought so much happiness to our lives.
Happy Birthday Little S.
xx
Mammasaurus
Oh little S Happy belated Birthday wishes! I love the baby photo – I have almost forgotten how they start so intently at things at that age. I suspect that her creative, funny and caring side must come from her mum x
Jen aka The Mad House
She is beautiful. I remember my children’s births with such clarity too.
Alexander Residence
Lovely post, really loved reading this Emma. L did exactly the same when she went to school, suddenly made girl friends, although she was the only girl sat with a boy on the bus yesterday on the school trip I helped on, which made me smile. Lovely to see Little S growing up, she is so beautiful!
Liz Burton
What a gorgeous post!
Happy birthday little S.
Mine did exactly the same too, went from playing with all the boys and having ‘boyfriends’ and ‘spare boyfriends’ to hanging out with the girls. Funny isn’t it?
Anya from Older Single Mum and The Healer
That’s made me well up. What a beautiful little girl. I have fallen in love with her. Great series of pictures and written with so much love. Happy Birthday Little S!
PS I completely empathise with all the trauma coming back on their Birthdays – they say it fades with time! *looks at those baby pics again!* xx
katie
Reading about births always makes me feel tearful. Despite the horrific pain it is still the most special time in your life.
Little S is gorgeous – so unique to have brown eyes and red hair 🙂 Happy birthday to her x
@mummydaddyme
She is beautiful Emma and I am so glad that she is enjoying school. Happy belated birthday S! x
Emma
I can’t believe she is five either! Such a beautiful post for a beautiful girl… xx
northernmum
she is a beauty! why do they have to grow so fast x